Wednesday, December 22, 2004

The day sucks~ Totally sucks! Had a little tiff with Dardar. Know what? I dont know if I did the right thing. He treats me well, I know. But in someways, he seemed like he doesn't care bout this relationship. Hes taking me for granted. Which he himself dont realise.

Im always keeping all the things to myself. Hoping when all the sad things reached my stomach, I will be able to digest. I dont wish to compare. But I cant help it. Hes leaving me with only a few minutes every week. Frm 4 hrs a week to few minutes a week. Going bad. It makes me feel that hes making use of me. Like when hes free, he will then call me up. If not, I wont even hear a news from me. Sometimes, when my frens asked me where he is, I will be so sad to say, "I don't know." At first I thought I could tolerate everything. But I find it hard. I wanted so much to be his perfect girl and at the same time hope he knew it and then be my perfect guy. But, he isnt trying hard enuf.

Life is so unfair. In love, one gotta give way. No matter you accept anot, you just love him. Maybe to him, we are already having a strong bond with each other. But he knows nothing of what a woman is thinking. Yes, Im much more independant right now. But doesn't mean I don't need his company. Doesn't mean whatever things I do, I wont need him by my side. Yet hes thinking this way.
I know theres nothing I can do. But I don't wanna continue like dis anymore. So maybe someday, somehow, someone will lead out.


Posted by LiQing at 10:56 AM